Shutting Down

I once didn’t believe it, that you don’t have anything to hold on to me anymore. I thought you were just bluffing.

Lately, I feel more convinced that its all true.

Whenever I ask for your time it seems like a punishment for you to listen to my days. And those days when I see how you don’t care about how I feel.

Yes, you never care if your words hurt me. You never care that you hurt me.

You don’t care if I am crying or said it hurts.

So what’s the point for me to stay? None of my presence is happiness for you. Every time I answer your call, you forced me to hang it up in tears.

I thought you want to be my safe place, my home.

How would you love someone if you are okay hurting her the way you want to.

Its a big wound you have given me tonight, and now I choose to shut all the doors close.

Let’s live our life independently, shall we?

I’ll let you go, let you be you, so you can enjoy all the things you want

You won’t need to take care of me anymore

You won’t need to let me know things in your life

As you wish, I’m leaving you.

If that peaceful world of yours mean a world without me in it

I am willing to leave.

So here I am writing all the things in my heart, it hurts really.

but I am shutting down myself.

From now on, I won’t take your happiness.

Cheers to your peaceful life.